Thursday, February 11, 2010

¡Numero Uno!

I feel alone, like no one cares. I mean, I do ostracize myself at times, but this is something different. I'm having that dust-in-the-wind moment. It sucks. Also, I tend to get defensive when I achieve the feeling of negligence, especially from a person whom I put on a pedestal. I know damn well that everybody feels good about themselves when they get prioritize to the top. I need want to be Number One, excluding from my family of course. I know that I'll always be on the top when it comes to my fams, even at the fact that I've put them through nonsensical bullshit.

I want to be important to someone,
and in their life.
I want to be included.
Not filling the void of someone's loneliness,
but being the reason for their happiness.
Hmmm, I don't know why I always think that something is missing. I have everything, not everything I want, but more than enough for adequate living. There is absolutely nothing wrong with my life, but I wonder if there is something wrong with me.

I'm not depressed, nor am I asking for sympathy or pity. I blame my pituitary gland. Anywho, moving on to my inessential tirade of random bitching… Every good has a bad, and I clearly understand and agree. I do know that life is not a fairy tale; not every story has a happy ending.

I just think that I deserve a little more.
Shit, not fair?
Eh, life isn't either.

4 comments:

  1. hm funny, what you wrote above you were once that for me.

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  2. Not filling the void of someone's loneliness,
    but being the reason for their happiness.

    You couldn't have said it better.

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  3. yo vulkan!! you still sprung huh ? sucks man

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