Euphoria

"I love you."

I'm not even gon' bullshit this, but this is the happiest I have ever been since I can remember. My cheek bones still hurt from smiling. =p

Yeah, blah blah, but shit, I'm taking this chance. If it's good, then it's wonderful; if it's bad, then it's a lesson learned. I'm not letting my guard down though.

Anywho, when he and I started talking, it was not good at all, but it escalated to something unusual, something amazing. I have never felt happiness like this; it is complete, pure bliss.

My friends always told me to seclude myself away from him because they feel like he's just like the other ones. They think that he's playing me, blah blah. Everybody knows that I am too nice, so they figured that he's just using me, blah blah. I knew he was different. There was something about him that I couldn't let go. I don't know what it was, but something told me to keep going.

He is amazing. We might argue here and there, but it's ephemeral. There is no perfection, but I feel like this is the epitome whom I've been looking for. Is my search finally over? Lol. Oh man, such a phenomenon.

Well hey, I thank my instinct for being correct for the first time in Mikki's Life.

Tell me why L O V E came up. That four-letter word that can be E V I L . Love? What's love got to do with it, right? I honestly don't know. I wouldn't know if I ever was in love, nor if I ever loved anyone for that matter. There are differences between a brotherly/sisterly love, and a relationship love, of course. There are so much things in 'love'. That word, single-handedly, can get people in big trouble. People can misunderstand it for something more or less of what it really is. It's one of those simple blunders that can mess up your life, and make it a living hell. Also, it can be something unbelievable. To share the same feelings with somebody is absolute utopia. It is so euphoric, like a feeling on Cloud 9.

I am high off of this jubilance;

my brain is filled with endorphins,

and I feel incredible.

Whatever these feelings are,

I'm loving them.

Bonus:

New Tat.

'Pinay' in Baybayin.

Curls.

My hair has been straight my whole life. It's fuckin' boring. Lol. I got bored one day, and I let Momma play with mi pelo.

Check it out. =p

Weird smirk. Lol.

PostScript:

Wonder why I haven't been bitching?

Because I'm happy. =]

And, it feels amazing.

I'll write a post about my current events soon. =p

Double Bs.

So funky how my palm is über white. =p

If you're thinking boobies and butts, sorry, you're short out of luck. HAHA.

Beauty and Brains, baby!

(HAHAHA, nice alliteration.)

From Dizzy's blog post, I got this short segment for Mikki's Corner. =]

He mentioned, ". . . guys can understand when I say most "pretty girls" can't hold a conversation for shit. . ."

Did you guys ever think that, maybe, you're the ones with the problema? Maybe you can't hold a conversation for shit..

Anywho, I beg to motherfuckin' differ. I'm not saying that I'm the prettiest flower in the bunch, but I'm not a bad-looking chick. I am educated, and I love learning for that matter. The stereotype of pretty girls being dunces is completely false. It's just guys trying to reason after they get rejected, of course, using their pigment of imagination.

Also, it's amusing to hear guys complain about pretty women not having words to say, but when the ladies actually speak, men complain about how females just yap and yap. I'm not sexist. I just don't like it when people put females in one genre. It gives us and our mommas a bad name. Come on. I think guys just need to reach the realization of the fact that we can be better than them. Also, everyday, more and more men are losing their women to other women, and making their women go to other women. HAHAHAHA.

Well, I'm just a living proof of the Double Bs,

and I am damn sure there are plenty others.

Take a good look,

put your fist below your chin,

and ponder.

Clefto-ness

Lol, random pic. I thought it was funny. It has nothing to do with the post. HAHA.

I stole this from LALALIYBEAN, who got it from Reese, who jacked it from some other people, and so the list goes on. Lol.

:1: MY EX- is Jamaican, and can sing.

:2: MAYBE I SHOULD- start exercising.

:3: I LOVE- my laptop, my iPod, and all my stuff, my family, PORN, Japanese food, and dark chocolate.

:4: PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I'M- uncanny, well, more like unique.

:5: I DON'T UNDERSTAND- human beings who, from birth, have penises and testicles.

:6: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING- I check what time it is.

:7: I LOST- my optimism.

:8: LIFE IS FULL OF- inane, random bullshit.

:9: MY PAST IS- grotesque.

:10: I GET ANNOYED WHEN- shit doesn't go my way.

:11: PARTIES ARE- like an escape from Earth.

:12: I WISH- for happiness. (Damn, I sound emo. Lol.)

:13: DOGS- are fuckin' mean, especially Shayna's evil little shit she calls Checkers.

:14: CATS- are afraid of water.

:15: TOMORROW- is another day.

:16: I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE- for smelly breath.

:17: IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS- I would buy me a car, and use the rest to make it rain in my room. HAHA.

:18: I'M TOTALLY TERRIFIED- of shit that doesn't exist, like the Boogeyman. (I sleep with the lights on. Lol.)

Yes, Random. Lol. New Nine West heels; new addition to the family. =]

So in love with them. =p

Her..

I know that everybody has wanted to be somebody else, at least once in their life time. Right? If I am wrong, then almost everybody has wanted to be somebody else. Better?

Trying to fool yourself in lies isn't going to work out too well. =p

I kid.

Anywho, this is the first time that I wanted to be somebody else. I want to be her, not to be just like her. I'm not trying to clone her, not like that. I don't want her personality, nor her looks.

I am not jealous of her. I just want her rank in his life. You know? Like a General. I'm currently Officer Shithead in my opinion. She was the boss. He loved her so much that he praised her path. He had tunnel vision; he can only see her, and there was nobody else. I wish to have that. I wish that I was in her position. I wish to have all the love and affection she achieved. I wish to have the power she had with herself; the power of making him feel so good. She filled him with butterflies whenever she was around. She had no rules above her; she made the rules. He loved her so much, and so did her.

I want everything she had.

The utopia they once had, had demised. But still, in the way he talks about her, I can still see the love from his smiles, and from the tone of his voice. The admiration is still there, but it was also mixed with hatred. His heart was broken, and I'm sure hers was too.

Only time will tell...

Inconspicuous

I just want to say all the unGodly fuckin' names to show you how I truly fuckin' feel, you know? I really fuckin' hate you. No matter what the fuck happens, I will always hate you. I loathe your guts. I wish you to hell, and I wish for your life to come crashing down to the ground. I wish for you to fall off a platform, and let a fuckin' train hit you right in the face. Let all your nastiness fuckin' rot. Don't worry, I will make sure they'd be eaten by rats. I'll take a fuckin' a-bomb, and shove it down your throat without any hesitation. You are on the top and the only person on my assassination-of-people list. I'm planning a plot to kill you as we speak. I'm just kidding.. Lol. But, wouldn't that be lovely? I dream, and play scenarios of how I can fuckin' get rid of your evil self. One day, just like that movie that was recently released starring Jamie Foxx. No, I am not a lunatic. I'm just furious.

Putanginamo.

I'm on the bridge to tears, just let me disappear, just let me go.

I wish to be invisible.

Bonus:

The inspiration of my 'white girl' dance.

I will have a video of it one of these days.

The first snow fall of the year,

October 15, 2009.

Papa's Kaarawan!

OCTOBER 17th

I have too much to say about my daddy. I'm going to write a book one day. Just wait. =] By the way, guess how old he turned..

Mahal kita!

Ha, look how red he is.

Nice candle. Lol.

Drunky.

Kuya Mike and Wifey.