Sunday, November 13, 2011

Tuesday, September 13, 2011


My Irish cream. LOL!!! =]

Monday, August 22, 2011

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Live life!

Summaaa time. =]

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
- Mark Twain

Saturday, June 4, 2011


I shouldn't be amused by all of this gratuitous bullshit, but I am. I don't know; I think some people take me as a fool. I'd rather enjoy the show, than talk in the process. Why get my hands dirty if others can do it for me? HAHA. Nope, not cynical at all.

My day will come. My prince, for myself, my one and only. He'll come. I know he will. No more lies. No more bullshit. Just for me, and only me. It's not selfish, well kinda is, but I know that he's out there.

I want to be annoyed with love.

Monday, May 30, 2011

And, I wonder...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, such great feelings, but still I worry with wonders from the past. For the first time, I am utterly speechless. I am amazed at myself that I can't come up with a rational proposal of why certain things are happening. I am kind of annoyed with myself, as well, because of my logical thinking. If it wasn't for that quality, I think I would've been long gone to happy town.

But it still does not dictate why I can't have a smile on my face. =]

Saturday, May 21, 2011


I need some drugs; I feel like shit.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


Let me apologize for my MIA-ness. You know, life...

Anywho, here's a synopsis of my shits . . .

Fucking up in school, kinda.
Got a job though. =]
Still single.
I'm moving down south some time in August.
Here's the most recent photo of me:

Monday, April 4, 2011


Aka Kain Carter. He's amazing and incredibly talented. If you haven't heard about him, here are some vids that'll tickle your fancies:

Want to know more?

P.S.: I apologize for my MIA-ness. I have been stressing and such from various reasons. I will make a transition to a different state once summer semester is over.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011


How can I plead to insanity if insanity won't let me know my state of sanity? Go figure. I'm on the bridge to fall. I hope somebody comes to rescue. Soon.

‎"But whatever is in store for me, I shall watch the daily modulations with an impersonal fascination not unmixed with awe at Mother Nature's gift for caricature, and will take the bitter with the sweet and keep a stiff upper lip." - Robert Benchley

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Jelly Wellyyy.

The most amazing tattoo artist, Johnny! =D

Half sleeve on the go. =]

Soooo, about old boy and I..

Ok, let me start off as I do love him, but emotionless. I did mess up, and no, I didn't cheat. He did mess up, and no, he didn't cheat – at least, I hope not. It was just a matter of consequences, and a series of unfortunate events.

He and I were together for about a year and a half. We've been through a lot of stuff. I mean, I understand why he would have a problem with my past, but he couldn't move on. I can't force him to accept me. Also, even if he didn't intend to make me feel a certain type of way, we didn't really spend time with each other as much as we should've. I'm not saying it was his fault, but I felt like I was always begging to get some alone time. I did tell him what the problem was, but nothing changed.

I've had my errors, as well. I lied to him about going out with my friends. He didn't like it when I go out, but in the end, he did end up finding out anyway. I yell, a lot, when I get upset – I go on a full-blown bitch mode.

We handle things differently. I like to talk about our problems, and find ways to solve them. When he gets upset, he doesn't speak. I mean, I really don't know.

All in all, I'm just exhausted, and I bet he is too. There's more to it than that, but he doesn't like it when I talk about him on my blog.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Root of ALL Evil.

And I quote her, 
"If he tells me that the world doesn't revolve around me, 
he's wrong because my world does."

This young, smart lady once told me to live my life for me. She also said that I should make myself happy, rather than worrying about what others think. Live life the way I want it. She made me realize that I didn't need to depend on anybody else to make me smile. I need to love myself because at the end of the day, I am all I got.

People tend misunderstand the concept of want from need. We don't need most of the things we want. Predominantly in today's society, we base everything off of money. We want to have a sense of instant gratification from material things; however, it's ephemeral. We compare our statuses and base our happiness on how much we are worth. Whatever happened to the little things in life? Everybody else is busy trying to survive. Money is everything? We made it like that. We let a piece of paper hold responsibility for how the world lives. Ultimately, we grew to believe that money is the source of happiness.

I don't think so.

"It's the simple things in life we forget..."

PS: Tattoo appointment is on March 3rd. =]

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


Here's a preview to my purple jelly fish – hence, Purplelly. Lol. I gotta get it filled in and shaded, blah blah. I'm getting half of a sleeve. =p YES!

No brains, no thoughts, just swimming.
No heart, no pains, just living.

(The poem varies; I change my mind all the time. Lol. )

I envy them.
Jellyfishes are magnificent creatures.
Also, there is one species of them that lives forever. =p Use thy Google.

And the story? I promise to you that it will be served with the updated picture of my new tattoo. =p

Thursday, February 10, 2011

New Chapter.

It means no worries.

Yeahhh, I'm moving on. I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. =p I shall explain then.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


I need some type of emotion rehabilitation or a mental pause. I'll be back in a week or so. Promise. =] I just need time to reevaluate some things in my life or what-not.

Btw, He and I are completely done with each other.

I'm single, but I shall be investing my time and energy on myself. My prince will come, eventually. I shall explain what had happened fully when I return.

Friday, January 28, 2011

No pulse.

I wish.

So my red blood cells wouldn't be able to get oxygen to all parts of my body. I don't want to feel. As much as I want to be numb, I can't. I just want to keep my distance. Hurt is pain. Run away is what my brain tells me, but my heart is speechless. At the fact that you left me empty handed or at least thought of it, kept both of them in shock.

Regardless, I don't want to be revived.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I know that I messed up. I yell, and I bitch. I would apologize, but it wouldn't take back time. I miss you. I miss us. I miss the times we goof off, and just talk about nonsensical bullshit. I miss everything.

And now, we can't even call each other. I would call you, but you seem to be irritated every time I speak to you. I know you wouldn't call me because you told me you needed a break, to be left alone. I understand.

I guess everything happens for a reason.

I'm sorry about this post on my blog. I know you don't like it when I talk about you.

I need you back. =|

I love you. I hope everything's alright.


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Saturday, January 22, 2011


Friday, January 21, 2011


I highly apologize for the lack of posts. I've been busy in college. Nursing is a killer. It's the first week and I have tons of work to do. =/ My brain can't function properly at the moment. My epiphanies are on hold. Lol. So, if anybody wants to stimulate my noggin' with something else besides chemistry, anatomy, and physiology, feel free to do so.

If anybody has a topic request or just want to debate with me, feel free to email me at, or comment. =]

If you want to vent or need advice,
feel free to email me as well.
I'll post it up unless you don't want me to.
Evidently, I will keep your identity in confidence.

I like this picture, but that nose is just bleh. =/ Lol. ANYWHOOOOO, email me away.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


Smile! There's always a reason to. =]

Saturday, January 15, 2011

45 things. (Via Tumblr)

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for.
45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
Are you remembering this? 
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.
You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

Sunday, January 9, 2011

WMMD! [3]

Besides Bf sleeping over my house, this video clip just made my day. Haha.


Tuesday, January 4, 2011


She has damaged one of the most important things in her life. She wishes she could go back in time and take everything back. She just wants n e e d s another chance to prove that everything will be alright.

She needs him back. The one who cares to listen, the one who sees the bigger picture, the one who calls just to talk, the one who shows how much he really loves her. The one who she fell in love with. She would give anything up to have him back. Anything.

"I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long."

Saturday, January 1, 2011


A new year is nothing but a measurement of time. I don't understand why people have new year's resolutions if they can do them at anytime.

HAPPY New Year, anyway. =]

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