"I can never stop drinking,
but I can stop getting drunk."
HAHAHA. I had told everyone that I am not an alcoholic. I was only going through a phase. Yes, I can admit to the fact that I did have some issues with alcohol, but not anymore. I've been sober. I drink occasionally, but I haven't been white-boy-wasted for quite some time now.
It's so amusing to me that an alcoholic beverage is literally adjacent to where I'm sitting, and I'm not even temped. The irony of it all is that I feel rejuvenated and free!!! I have achieved liberty from all those chaotic times and breakdowns. No more cravings. Now, I can honestly look back and just laugh at my stupidness. Oh man. I feel like this is the first time that I actually have complete control over ME. I am the master of myself and the power feels great!
And no more 40s; I switched to Four Lokos.