Saturday, October 24, 2009


I know that everybody has wanted to be somebody else, at least once in their life time. Right? If I am wrong, then almost everybody has wanted to be somebody else. Better?

Trying to fool yourself in lies isn't going to work out too well. =p
I kid.

Anywho, this is the first time that I wanted to be somebody else. I want to be her, not to be just like her. I'm not trying to clone her, not like that. I don't want her personality, nor her looks.

I am not jealous of her. I just want her rank in his life. You know? Like a General. I'm currently Officer Shithead in my opinion. She was the boss. He loved her so much that he praised her path. He had tunnel vision; he can only see her, and there was nobody else. I wish to have that. I wish that I was in her position. I wish to have all the love and affection she achieved. I wish to have the power she had with herself; the power of making him feel so good. She filled him with butterflies whenever she was around. She had no rules above her; she made the rules. He loved her so much, and so did her.

I want everything she had.

The utopia they once had, had demised. But still, in the way he talks about her, I can still see the love from his smiles, and from the tone of his voice. The admiration is still there, but it was also mixed with hatred. His heart was broken, and I'm sure hers was too.

Only time will tell...


  1. This entry reminds me of the guy I'm into.
    I didn't want to be the young lady he spoke of, I simply knew that once she was out of the picture and it were 'my turn' per se that he'd know I'm the winner.
    And as of now, yes he sees that.
    Time will def' tell if things work out for us b/c right now...ugh, bipolar relationship.

  2. Lol. I'm just being patient, but the thought will always be in the back of my head. SMH..


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