Peep the tan lines. =p
I'm keeping this post short and simple. Well, I'm going to try to. =]
Let me fill you in onto Mikki's current love life. Lol. I'm technically taken, but literally single.
Basically, Boyboy and I were conversing, and shit came up. I got to admit that I've been through some stuff that I'm not proud of. Yes, and half of them were instigated by me. Eh, I told him the things he needed to know. No need to flaunt what's unnecessary.
I don't force people to stay with me if/when they find some level of uncomfortableness. I understand that I have done things that can be described by being repugnant and obscene. I've done unbelievable shit that can be classified as grotesque. I changed, but it's still me. It's hard to explain, but hopefully you understand where I'm coming from. `Til this day, I can't fathom why I've done the shit that I've done. I have no choice but to take it all in. I caused this to myself, and I shouldn't blame anybody for it; of course, I don't.
A couple of months back, I met somebody who made me realize that I was a fuck-up. He made me grasp that it was not okay to be the person I was. It was not okay to not give a fuck. Actually, he wasn't the first one. He was just the one who made an impact. As uncanny as it might seem, I actually listened. Regardless from all the indifference in the world, it's in human nature to care. Even if I do well in school, my reputation outside does matter. I am a reflection of anybody who I am around with, and vice versa.
So yesterday, the past went back to the present. REWIND!
He was penalizing me for something that happened about a year and a half ago. I understand where he was coming from, so I told him that it was his choice to stay or leave. I was not going to force him to keep dealing with it. He has a choice to walk away from the problem; I don't, and never will. He doesn't have to deal with me, and everything that comes in the package.
I'm assuming that he chose to deal with all of my bullshit, but I think that his stay will just be ephemeral. Nobody lasts with me. Lol. But, it would be the best if it works out, wouldn't it be? =]
I surprised myself because I developed patience. HAHA. I'm waiting for a couple of more weeks, or months. I want to see where this goes. =]
One example that changed was the drinking. If you truly knew who I was, you would know that I carried a bottle with me everywhere and anywhere I went. I usually stashed two bottles in my room, incase I finish one of them. Now, I don't carry shit anymore, and no more liquor en mi cuarto.
Yessss, Henny and I broke up.
He doesn't drink, nor smoke. Ironically, I met him at the movie theaters while I was drinking liquor from a Monster can. HAHA.