Yeah, no lie; I am. One of my closest friends said I was just desperate. Haha, nah. Lol. I love the whole idea of relationships. Yes, I know there are ups and downs, and I'm willing to go through it all. I just love holding hands, hugging, and kissing, and all that good stuff. Evidently, with a person whom a really want to be with. I like sitting down, watching TV with an accompaniment of silence, without it being awkward. I love it when somebody thinks about me almost 24/7 without becoming obsessive. I love how the love between each other is mutual. I'm waiting for that somebody who can make me smile like there is no tomorrow. Just that somebody who I can depend on through thick or thin. My cousin told me to just lay low, and just wait. Well, that's what I'm doing, just waiting for my Prince Charming to sweep me off of my feet. Everybody keeps telling me that I'm still young, but I feel like my time is running out. If I'm still single by the time I turn 25, I'm signing myself up for eHarmony, and Match.com. HAHAHA. I'm serious though. My grandma told me that I will probably get a divorce. She said that I'm too bossy. HAHA, nah. My day with my guy will come. =]
Patience is a virtue.
Trust me, I felt pain. The pain that can't be solve by any fuckin' pain meds. It hurt so bad. I didn't know how to make it stop. All I can do was just fucking cry, shrieking with the horrid thought of me and him not being together. I was huddled up on the corner with my knees against my chest. Tears couldn't stop running down my cheeks. I prayed to God for the hurt to stop, but I was just ignored and neglected. I thought that I was about to lose my mind. I could not think at all. All I can do was fuck up. There was no room for light. I just gave up.
Yeah. I fucked up badly.
I have not been out. Last time I went out was two weeks ago. I have not gotten drunk. Last time I got drunk was two weeks ago. I still drink, but the last time I drank was red, red wine. I'm done with all that shit. All the mishaps I got myself into in the past backfired like a bitch. It smacked me hard, and it caught me off guard.
ALCOHOL truly FUCKS people up.
I don't care what anybody says. Stay away from any alcoholic beverages. You know damn well you can't blame everything on the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol. No sir.
I suggest to not consume alcohol around people you barely know. The hormonal and testosterone levels boost up, and shit happens. One day, you'll come across somebody whom you really like, but they can't accept you because of the shit you did while you were intoxicated. Yes, past is past, but people do have standards. Lol.
Love has taught me a lot of shit. It's what I blame for my past. I'm just a sucker for love.
If you really love somebody, be sure you're ready to sacrifice, to forgive, to accept, and to understand.
During summers, most relationships fail due to the superfluous amount of parties. People like to have fun; I understand that. It's just that I don't think people should break hearts just because they want a one night stand. I'm sorry to say this, but a lot of guys break up with their girls because of that shit. It wouldn't be cheating because they broke up right? I mean like come on, that's some fucked up shit. They know that no matter what, the girl will take them back, so they don't even give a fuck if she's crying her heart out. When a girl does that to a guy, every word in the urban dictionary on degrading females will be used. Asap. Yeah, what comes around, come back around though.
"What you won't do, do for love. You tried everything, but you don't give up."
My last relationship flopped. I guess that everything happens for a reason. I'm not giving up though. It just sucks to go through it. The whole process of breaking up sucks balls. WTF?! I keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, because it does. You'll find out soon. =p
Man, if you've been reading my posts and the comments along with them, you can tell that a lot of people does not really like me. Lol. It's funny how people assume a lot of shit, even if I'm not doing anything at all. First of all, I've been stuck at home since I crashed my car. So, if you're planning on commenting this with nonsense, please shut the fuck up.
My new babies.