Thursday, May 6, 2010

Déjà Vu

Waking up in the morning, feeling like the whole world just crashed onto Me. WTF?

I don't necessarily understand what it is, but I know that it's not good. I don't need crocodile tears, nor am I asking for pity; sympathy, maybe. I do acknowledge the fact that I am more fortunate than other people, but I won't compare my adversities to others'. And, isn't it kind of fucked up to look at somebody else's misfortunes for the better of one's self? Selfishness is human intuition, but it shouldn't be intended. In my opinion, at least.

I honestly don't know what to do. I have been fine for 2 or 3 years, and this nonsense is back. I have not felt like this for a while now. I am so angry, but don't have anything to be mad about. This indescribable anguish is consuming every inch of my body and mind. It's calling for all inhumane pains to scatter all over my nervous system. I have no control. I'm lost. My mind is filled with conundrums, but also occupied with emptiness. The gamut of sorrows couldn't even sum up to this bullshit...

I feel like ripping my skull open. I want to find out what in the fuck is causing this. Really. Don't need this, not right now.

There is something wrong; I don't know if it's me, or something else.


Bonus: Via iPhone.
May 6, 2010.

Got mad at some bullshit, and this is what had happened. Nothing like the good 'ol times. =|
Needed something, and I got this. It's insufficient, so I shall be back with some more. Evidenlty, it's not done.


P.S.:
Do not depend on anybody,
because at the end of the day,
it's every man for himself.


8 comments:

  1. my asian half:) i love it! and i miss yu peteyy

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  2. Poor wall it was nothing more than a innocent bystander. Better the wall than someone's face lol, seems like boxing would be a good release for all that negative energy.

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  3. it must be cheap gettin tattoos at ur area, cause your recent tattoo and the one below that new one are pretty big.. is it?

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  4. i be feeling like that a bunch of times, thanks for putting it in words, because i was never able to explain it.

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  5. @The End Game: Boxing? Uhh, not time. I so wish. =]

    @Anonymous: Uhh, depending on what tat shop, and tat artist.

    @Odain: Glad to be at service. =]

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