Yeah man,

I just pulled a Rihanna.


Jk. Lol.

"Give me liberty,

or give me death!"

I'm just aggravated at the fact that some people have the fucking nerves to tell others what they can or cannot be. Everybody is his or her own person.

Wonder why I really don't go to church? I mean, I'm not an atheist. I have my own beliefs. I just don't believe in organized religion. I always thought that 'God' created everybody as equals, but then again homosexuals are looked down upon. Why? Supposedly, homosexuality is mentioned in the Bible as a sin. Also, the Bible states that the sanctity of marriage is between a man and a woman; therefore, two men or two women, who are in love, can't marry. For me, it just doesn't make any sense. Anywho... Christianity, in general, is a whole bunch of hypocrisy split into 124829038 different denominations. I could ramble about this forever, but it's not my place to. I'm not educated enough to really make an impression in regard to any religion.

I know the feeling of not having anybody to speak to. I don't like being lonely. It sucks. I've been there, and I understand when people say that they are alone.

There are billions of people in this world, and I bet that there is at least one or two people that are dependable. Don't give up.

Whenever I'm in a position that I can't get a hold of anybody to talk to, I get so furious and I always think that nobody cares about me. I feel neglected, but I came to realization that that is not the truth; it's just reality. I mean, I think even 911 puts people on hold.
Here's a temporary solution... What I do is I write. I take a blank piece of paper and drown it with my sorrows. It's a way for taking out nonsensical thoughts away from my head. It serves as a replacement for somebody who I usually bitch to. Lol. I give this method two thumbs up as a mechanism to whinge freely.

Anywho...

Enjoy the freedom of being an individual. Don't ever create self-loathe from others' assumptions. Stay true to yourself.

Smile. =]

SOME PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN HOW TO STOP RUNNING THEIR MOUTHS. GROW SOME BALLS AND TALK TO ME INSTEAD OF VOICING YOUR SHIT TO OTHER PEOPLE. LIKE REALLY?

IT'S MY MOTHERFUCKING BLOG, SO I COULD REALLY CARE LESS ABOUT YOUR GOTDAMN FEELINGS.

HAVE A GREAT FUCKING DAY.

Kean University!

I went to Kean to visit the one and only Shaywayyyy. I love that girl!!! =p Anywho, we had fun and met a couple of cool kids. And yes, for once, I'm showing off my insecurities. FTW. LOL. Nahh, I was wearing that top because I wanted to show off my tattoo in public for once. I actually changed into something else because I wasn't feeling comfortable, but Shay told me to change back. Lol.

Enjoy the pics, and I apologize for the lack of variety. I didn't want to take my camera with me because I didn't want to fuck it up. Yeahh, there were too many party-fouls that happened. Good thing that I didn't take my baby with me. People just like spilling shit all over. Haha. Motherfuckers..

So far, I find college pretty amusing.

CLICK THE PICTURES

- for better quality.

She spelled her name wrong. Ha.

WTF is up with my hand?? Lol.

HAAAAAAAAAA.

HHHHAAAAAAAAA x 2.

♥ ♥ ♥

No plastics.

I ♥ Boobies!

POW CHICKA WOW WOW!

B. C. S.

I am officially in the statistics of being a broke, college student.
I quit Charlotte Russe last week, and I just quit Tilly's today.

It just didn't feel right anymore...

FTW!

My patience finally ran out. I'm drained. He's drained. We are both getting sick of all that nonsensical fighting; I'm sure of it. All I want is time, attention, affection, and all the other stuff I told Him about. He knows and He tries. He is such an amazing person. I appreciate Him dearly, but sometimes things are just not meant to be. It's funny because when we're good, it's like peanut butter and jelly. When we're bad, it's like oil and water. I feel like I'm always getting the last minute. I hate getting the crumbs. I feel like a fucking beggar waiting for people to throw me leftovers. Whatever happened to MY piece? Motherfucking people are so hungry that they took my shit, too. Fuckers. ARGGGGGGGGG. I'm frustrated, pissed, confused, sad, and whatever negative connotation in regard to my situation.

I was fine before; I'll be fine later though.

I try not to be selfish, but human beings are innately like that. I mean like shit, but what the fuck... Some people just don't fucking think. I've been through that phase, but I never ruin anybody else's shits. I'm so sick and tired of being so sick and tired. So, fuck it.

From now on, it's all about me.

Fuck everybody.

Fuck the world.

Sovereignty

"I can never stop drinking,

but I can stop getting drunk."

HAHAHA. I had told everyone that I am not an alcoholic. I was only going through a phase. Yes, I can admit to the fact that I did have some issues with alcohol, but not anymore. I've been sober. I drink occasionally, but I haven't been white-boy-wasted for quite some time now.

It's so amusing to me that an alcoholic beverage is literally adjacent to where I'm sitting, and I'm not even temped. The irony of it all is that I feel rejuvenated and free!!! I have achieved liberty from all those chaotic times and breakdowns. No more cravings. Now, I can honestly look back and just laugh at my stupidness. Oh man. I feel like this is the first time that I actually have complete control over ME. I am the master of myself and the power feels great!

And no more 40s; I switched to Four Lokos.

Haha. JK.