.Spontaneous.Combustions.

Swingin'

2012-01-26T16:44:00.001-05:00

=]

2011-11-13T20:42:00.000-05:00

Panks.

2011-09-13T00:46:00.000-04:00

My Irish cream. LOL!!! =]

Killa!

2011-08-22T03:20:00.003-04:00

Live life!

2011-07-07T13:58:00.007-04:00

Summaaa time. =]

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
- Mark Twain

Funny.

2011-06-04T18:42:00.001-04:00

I shouldn't be amused by all of this gratuitous bullshit, but I am. I don't know; I think some people take me as a fool. I'd rather enjoy the show, than talk in the process. Why get my hands dirty if others can do it for me? HAHA. Nope, not cynical at all.

My day will come. My prince, for myself, my one and only. He'll come. I know he will. No more lies. No more bullshit. Just for me, and only me. It's not selfish, well kinda is, but I know that he's out there.

I want to be annoyed with love.

And, I wonder...

2011-05-30T03:46:00.001-04:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, such great feelings, but still I worry with wonders from the past. For the first time, I am utterly speechless. I am amazed at myself that I can't come up with a rational proposal of why certain things are happening. I am kind of annoyed with myself, as well, because of my logical thinking. If it wasn't for that quality, I think I would've been long gone to happy town.

But it still does not dictate why I can't have a smile on my face. =]

...

2011-05-21T02:11:00.001-04:00

I need some drugs; I feel like shit.

Update:

2011-04-13T20:30:00.000-04:00

Let me apologize for my MIA-ness. You know, life...

Anywho, here's a synopsis of my shits . . .

Fucking up in school, kinda.
Got a job though. =]
Still single.
I'm moving down south some time in August.
Here's the most recent photo of me:

HotDamnIRock.

2011-04-04T00:53:00.000-04:00

Aka Kain Carter. He's amazing and incredibly talented. If you haven't heard about him, here are some vids that'll tickle your fancies:

Want to know more?

P.S.: I apologize for my MIA-ness. I have been stressing and such from various reasons. I will make a transition to a different state once summer semester is over.

Psychosis.

2011-03-22T20:48:00.002-04:00

How can I plead to insanity if insanity won't let me know my state of sanity? Go figure. I'm on the bridge to fall. I hope somebody comes to rescue. Soon.

‎"But whatever is in store for me, I shall watch the daily modulations with an impersonal fascination not unmixed with awe at Mother Nature's gift for caricature, and will take the bitter with the sweet and keep a stiff upper lip." - Robert Benchley

Jelly Wellyyy.

2011-03-05T14:14:00.003-05:00

The most amazing tattoo artist, Johnny! =D

Half sleeve on the go. =]

Soooo, about old boy and I..

Ok, let me start off as I do love him, but emotionless. I did mess up, and no, I didn't cheat. He did mess up, and no, he didn't cheat – at least, I hope not. It was just a matter of consequences, and a series of unfortunate events.

He and I were together for about a year and a half. We've been through a lot of stuff. I mean, I understand why he would have a problem with my past, but he couldn't move on. I can't force him to accept me. Also, even if he didn't intend to make me feel a certain type of way, we didn't really spend time with each other as much as we should've. I'm not saying it was his fault, but I felt like I was always begging to get some alone time. I did tell him what the problem was, but nothing changed.

I've had my errors, as well. I lied to him about going out with my friends. He didn't like it when I go out, but in the end, he did end up finding out anyway. I yell, a lot, when I get upset – I go on a full-blown bitch mode.

We handle things differently. I like to talk about our problems, and find ways to solve them. When he gets upset, he doesn't speak. I mean, I really don't know.

All in all, I'm just exhausted, and I bet he is too. There's more to it than that, but he doesn't like it when I talk about him on my blog.

Root of ALL Evil.

2011-02-22T20:35:00.008-05:00

And I quote her, "If he tells me that the world doesn't revolve around me, he's wrong because my world does."

This young, smart lady once told me to live my life for me. She also said that I should make myself happy, rather than worrying about what others think. Live life the way I want it. She made me realize that I didn't need to depend on anybody else to make me smile. I need to love myself because at the end of the day, I am all I got.

People tend misunderstand the concept of want from need. We don't need most of the things we want. Predominantly in today's society, we base everything off of money. We want to have a sense of instant gratification from material things; however, it's ephemeral. We compare our statuses and base our happiness on how much we are worth. Whatever happened to the little things in life? Everybody else is busy trying to survive. Money is everything? We made it like that. We let a piece of paper hold responsibility for how the world lives. Ultimately, we grew to believe that money is the source of happiness.

I don't think so.

"It's the simple things in life we forget..."

PS: Tattoo appointment is on March 3rd. =]

Purplelly.

2011-02-15T19:13:00.004-05:00

Here's a preview to my purple jelly fish – hence, Purplelly. Lol. I gotta get it filled in and shaded, blah blah. I'm getting half of a sleeve. =p YES!

No brains, no thoughts, just swimming.
No heart, no pains, just living.

(The poem varies; I change my mind all the time. Lol. )

I envy them.
Jellyfishes are magnificent creatures.
Also, there is one species of them that lives forever. =p Use thy Google.

And the story? I promise to you that it will be served with the updated picture of my new tattoo. =p

New Chapter.

2011-02-10T19:27:00.003-05:00

It means no worries.

Yeahhh, I'm moving on. I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. =p I shall explain then.

Hiatus.

2011-02-01T13:08:00.004-05:00

I need some type of emotion rehabilitation or a mental pause. I'll be back in a week or so. Promise. =] I just need time to reevaluate some things in my life or what-not.

Btw, He and I are completely done with each other.

I'm single, but I shall be investing my time and energy on myself. My prince will come, eventually. I shall explain what had happened fully when I return.

No pulse.

2011-01-28T01:02:00.004-05:00

I wish.

So my red blood cells wouldn't be able to get oxygen to all parts of my body. I don't want to feel. As much as I want to be numb, I can't. I just want to keep my distance. Hurt is pain. Run away is what my brain tells me, but my heart is speechless. At the fact that you left me empty handed or at least thought of it, kept both of them in shock.

Regardless, I don't want to be revived.

♥

2011-01-23T20:54:00.002-05:00

I know that I messed up. I yell, and I bitch. I would apologize, but it wouldn't take back time. I miss you. I miss us. I miss the times we goof off, and just talk about nonsensical bullshit. I miss everything.

And now, we can't even call each other. I would call you, but you seem to be irritated every time I speak to you. I know you wouldn't call me because you told me you needed a break, to be left alone. I understand.

I guess everything happens for a reason.

I'm sorry about this post on my blog. I know you don't like it when I talk about you.

I need you back. =|

I love you. I hope everything's alright.

=] SHOP AWAY.

2011-01-23T16:58:00.001-05:00

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2011-01-22T18:03:00.002-05:00

SHOOT
ME.

Sorry.

2011-01-21T19:02:00.006-05:00

I highly apologize for the lack of posts. I've been busy in college. Nursing is a killer. It's the first week and I have tons of work to do. =/ My brain can't function properly at the moment. My epiphanies are on hold. Lol. So, if anybody wants to stimulate my noggin' with something else besides chemistry, anatomy, and physiology, feel free to do so.

If anybody has a topic request or just want to debate with me, feel free to email me at sneakuhbutt@gmail.com, or comment. =]

If you want to vent or need advice,
feel free to email me as well.
I'll post it up unless you don't want me to.
Evidently, I will keep your identity in confidence.

I like this picture, but that nose is just bleh. =/ Lol. ANYWHOOOOO, email me away.

2011-01-18T00:48:00.002-05:00

LOVE YOURSELF MORE THAN ANYTHING BECAUSE NOBODY ELSE CAN LOVE YOU MORE!

Smile! There's always a reason to. =]

45 things. (Via Tumblr)

2011-01-15T21:00:00.001-05:00

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for.

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.
You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

WMMD! [3]

2011-01-09T07:57:00.002-05:00

Besides Bf sleeping over my house, this video clip just made my day. Haha.

Enjoy.

...

2011-01-04T06:29:00.002-05:00

She has damaged one of the most important things in her life. She wishes she could go back in time and take everything back. She just ~~wants~~ n e e d s another chance to prove that everything will be alright.

She needs him back. The one who cares to listen, the one who sees the bigger picture, the one who calls just to talk, the one who shows how much he really loves her. The one who she fell in love with. She would give anything up to have him back. Anything.

"I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long."

1.1.11

2011-01-01T13:01:00.003-05:00

A new year is nothing but a measurement of time. I don't understand why people have new year's resolutions if they can do them at anytime.

HAPPY New Year, anyway. =]

Visit thy TUMBLR! =]

Dos Años!

2010-12-31T09:12:00.005-05:00

Happy 2-year anniversary to my blog. =]

THANKS TO ALL MY FOLLOWERS, RANDOM READERS, AND EVERYONE ELSE!!!!! I love you all. ♥

Nostalgia...

2010-12-30T15:07:00.005-05:00

I didn't feel that much holiday spirit this Christmas.. Hmm... I was trying to figure out why I wasn't excited. It made me think and reminisce about my childhood.

I miss the Philippines. =/

PRESENTS!!!

Yes, that's the lens mug from my wishlist. =]

Bf got me these boots! So dope.

All in all, Christmas went well. I love my family. I love my Boyfriend. All smiles. =]

2010-12-26T17:49:00.008-05:00

‎"God created man before woman, but then you always make a rough draft before the final masterpiece."

"The average woman would rather have beauty than brains because the average man can see better than he can think."

P.S.: I shall start a TUMBLR by the new year. =] I can almost guarantee that it will be updated more than my blog. More randomness.

Maligayang Pasko!

2010-12-25T11:04:00.001-05:00

Merry Christmas!

Happy holidays!

Bow-chicka-wow-wow!

2010-12-24T16:38:00.011-05:00

Sex has to be one of the best natural highs, well reaching an orgasm is. You know what I mean. I understand that condoms may hinder the extreme euphoric feeling that can be obtained if none is used, but being highly irresponsible can cause some life-changing effects.

Uhm, a baby? STDs? Well, I'll talk about STDs later. Lol.

Well, lately, I've been seeing teenage mothers walking all over the place. I'm not bashing them. I have no problem with young parents – not at all. As a matter of fact, I salute them. I just think that people should think it through first. The part of the brain that controls rationality in all parts is the prefrontal cortex, and it isn't completely developed until people hit their early twenties. It means that teenagers' thoughts aren't fully processed during their years because their brains haven't finished developing.

KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!

For me? As of right now, pregnancy is not an option. It just wouldn't happen; plain and simple. Well, at least, I'll terminate it. If not, my dad would probably push me down the stairs. Lol, yeah, he probably would.

Anywho... When I have a baby, I want everything to be planned. I'll be prepared. I'm not trying to get stuck with a minimum wage job because I didn't go to college or couldn't finish high school. Fuck outta here. I'm sorry, but I have high aspirations for myself. I'm not saying that people who has children early aren't successful, it's just that it's difficult. Well, from what I've seen. I'm not trying to have a baby and my baby's father and I aren't married. Haha, NO! I'm against deadbeats. Regardless, I know that I can handle it on my own; however, I don't want my child growing up without a father.

A baby is definitely a blessing. It's not a toy that you can put back because you're tired of playing with it. I believe that it is a choice to bring a new life into this Earth. Just be more responsible and think about the consequences.

I don't know if this is cute or sad... Lol, but it's definitely amusing.

Feng Shui

2010-12-22T18:09:00.006-05:00

Kind of. Lol.

This past week has been fucking ludicrous. I wanted to start fresh or what not. Remember I said that I was cleaning my room? Here are some before and after pics. =]

Before.

Yeahh... I can admit that I used to drink a lot, but not anymore though. =]

After.

I don't wear sneakers like that anymore. I tried fitting all my sneakers in my brother's room, but it didn't work. Lol. I removed about 50 ish pairs though. =P Yupp, such an accomplishment. I'm actually trying to sell my sneakers. As soon as I get the time to take pictures of them and do research about shipment, I'll put them up.
It's still a tad bit messy, but it's definitely better that how my room was before. And yes, my room is orange. Lol.

Bittersweet-ness

2010-12-21T23:13:00.014-05:00

I adore birthdays. My birthday is important to me because it's my very own holiday.

My birthday didn't go as well as I planned. Maybe my expectations were way too high...? All I wanted was to have funnnn, but no. Freaking series of unfortunate events. Arg.

Anywho....

Since I told Mama I was not going to be present during my actual birth day, we went out to eat. =]

Dec 12th.

Minado is my favorite restaurant, ever. =] Japanese buffet at its finest.

(Via Mama's iPhone)

On my actual birthday, Dec 16th...

(Pics from Nicole's and my Sony camera.)

That old broad was showing her tiddies before I turned my camera on. Lol. Crazy.

So, we went to Webster Hall. It was not what I expected it to be. There were a lot of nasty, grimey ass people, and rude motherfuckers. Sorry for the language. Also, I was not planning on wearing that outfit. Lol. Just saying.

I bought me a pair of stilletos from Bakers. They're comfy. I got tons of blisters though because I wore them for 6 hours. OUCH.

Dec 18th.

This was my stocking-stuffing, but my mom just gave it to me anyway. I don't know why, but it made my day though. =]

Happy 19th Birthday to Mikki.
My first birthday.

Oh yeahh, I got two cards from two sweethearts. I'll scan them as soon as I get them out of my car. =]

Fillerrrrrr.

2010-12-14T19:20:00.006-05:00

Arg! I've been wanting to upload these pics from my camera, but I can't find my damn usb cord. =/

I'm stalling from studying. I got two finals tomorrow. =/

Sucks ballsssssss..

But....enjoy this photo of me when I got all of my wisdom teeth pulled out.... LOL. Yeah, I was still inebriated from nitrous oxide and sedatives. Haha.

Oh yeahhh, and two days until my birthday.
☺

Attitude of Gratitude

2010-12-11T03:09:00.008-05:00

My first semester of college is about to be over this upcoming week. I can honestly say that I didn't do shit. Lol. I'm a nursing major, and I go to a community college. I don't have the money to go to a bigger college, nor the patience to deal with nonsensical bullshits with roommates. Lol. I mean, I do want to experience some real college life, but it's not on the top of my list. I've done all that drinking and bullshit a while back. Eh.
(freedom)
Anywho.... My psych professor, who is amazing, gave us students gratitude rocks. I've been carrying it for the past couple of days now. The way it works is that every time I touch the rock, I think about something that I'm grateful for. It's pretty awesome, actually. It gave me a reminder of how I'm abundant in gratuitous shits. It makes me relax and keeps me on the positive side of things. =]

She explained the Law of Attraction. It really opened up my eyes to the real world. To sum it up, thoughts manifest into reality. So, the more positive thinking people do, the more positive things will come into their lives.

(The Homie and I were trying to study. Lol.)

There is ALWAYS something to smile about.

WMMD! [2]

2010-12-08T21:10:00.015-05:00

What made my day:

THANK YOU FOR THE SMILES!!!! =]

From the Bf ♥ :

From Facebook:

From the gorgeous Daja:

Soooo, I should put smiles on the faces of people who put smiles on mine. =]
Here was the first one.

You can never go wrong with making people happy. =]

Obliviousness

2010-12-03T05:31:00.008-05:00

I lost my camera remote when I went to the city last month. I didn't even realize it until the day after I got home. SMH! =/ Anywhoooo, I had included it in my wishlist. I finally got another one; thanks to my amazing Bf. =]

By the way, it's almost my birthday!
Thirteen days!!!

Merriments.

2010-12-01T20:01:00.021-05:00

It's not that hard to find a replacement. Wonder why people resort to infidelity? Because their partners don't suffice their expectations. They don't provide them the happiness and satisfaction that they aim for. Nobody likes feeling pathetic, nor being put down. Everybody wants to feel important and wanted.

For how long can patience hold a relationship together?

Females, in general, need security. They love being cherished. A guy showing adoration is a symbol for her importance in his life. It's complete euphoria; you know – like Cloud 9. I mean, but this is all common sense; at least, it should be. Sometimes, I just can't fathom the fact that people can't comprehend shit that's so minute.

Why feel bad if there's a choice to feel good?

Edited:

I actually thought of an answer last night. Lol. And, my psych class helped me out as well.

I mean, my emotions are my responsibility. The way I feel is not what most people intend to make me feel; thus, it's my fault for the most part. I'm an irrational thinker when it comes to me feeling neglected or what-not. I need to learn how to relax and learn how to ponder before talking shit. Self-control is the key.

Ultimately, the answer is because love is in the air. I love Boyfriend very dearly, and He loves me as well. He doesn't mean any harm. I'm just overthinking and overlooking shit. I've always done that my whole life, and I always use the excuse that that's just how I am. WRONG. I just don't know how to limit my boundaries. I'm in need to learn how to keep everything within the range – not to go overboard.

Anywhoooo, I apologize for any negative feelings that might have arisen from my previous commentary. I had no intentions to evoke any type of adverse feelings whatsoever.

Bonus: Look what I got today for 50 cents each. =]

I ♥ Nerds!

2010-11-27T21:13:00.003-05:00

From my Wishlist, here are the Ray-Ban Wayfarer Frames. =]

Yes, they're prescription glasses.

FF [1]

2010-11-26T22:00:00.004-05:00

Yeahhhh, hope your Thanksgiving was great! =] Mine was über-fun. I'll post up some pics soon, but this just couldn't wait.

I'm not an asshole. I definitely don't like dogging people out – not really. I'm not a bitch, but I just had to. Lol.

(Via Ro Hall)

WTF was this dude thinking? Lol. I thought that he was wearing long johns when I first glanced at him.

They were white, denim jeans that were too big for him. HAHA!

Dude had to fold them.

Ughhh yeah. This is not hot, not even cute, nor ok. Lol. He looked like Flava Flav's baby with Katt Williams. Sorry, but this is an FF – fashion fail.

If I see you out on public like this, don't be surprised if you see your ass on here. Lol.

Yummy

2010-11-24T18:29:00.008-05:00

in my tummy. =] I was in the mood to play in my kitchen last night.

I planned to make baked ziti, but my mom got mostaccioli rigati instead. I baked it anyway. Lol.

Can't have pasta without garlic bread. =]

AND

(The picture was taken circa 2005.)HAVE A WONDERFUL THANKSGIVING !! =]

Baby Justin with some Gobble tunes. Lol.

Wishlist

2010-11-21T19:06:00.027-05:00

2010, but most likely will prolong for 2011.

Since my birthday is on the same month as Christmas, I only get one gift for the two occasions. No me gusta pero that's just the way it is. I'm not selfish; I just love free stuff. Haha.

Oh yeah, and they are in no particular order.

(♥) An upgrade to my camera. I'm scared that my baby will shut down on me soon. =/ It will be two years old this upcoming March. (Nikon D7000 / D90, or Canon 7D would be a nice addition. =])

(♥) ~~Camera remote~~. Hopefully, Bf will get me this one =]. I actually purchased one, but I lost it two weeks after.

(♥) ICE SKATING! =]

(♥) Hello Kitty Lomography Fisheye 35mm Camera

(♥) ~~Nikon Lens Mug~~ - DOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(♥) ~~Spend some quality time with loved-ones~~.

(♥) Hello Kitty Mug - [1] [2] [3] Doesn't matter which one. =p Either one will suffice.

(♥) Mama can never go wrong with a pair of boots. =p
- Uggs: [1] [2] (black, chestnut, grey) [3] (black)
- Aldo Boots: [1] (taupe, black) [2] (cognac)

(♥) Ugg Slippers - [1] (Any color.) [2] (black, chestnut, espresso, pewter)

(♥) ~~Ray-Ban Wayfarer Frames~~ - My glasses are about 5 years old-ish..? I needs me a new pair. =]

(♥) Go out to dinner with my best friends and Bf.

(♥) Get my car tinted and some HID lights!!!!

(♥) CLOTHES and tons of SCARVES! Ha. gift cards to Forever 21 or H&M? =P

(♥) Hats - [1] (Any color. There's probably a cheaper one in H&M.) [2] [3] (Any color.)

(♥) TATTOOS and piercings!

(♥) $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

I'll add some more when something else pops up in my head. =]

Vintage Sartorial

2010-11-18T01:17:00.003-05:00

I simply adore old photos. I shall upload some of my own personal collection soon. =]

Tita Ruby.
90's

Mama. (The one with the arrow. Lol.)
80's

(Via my aunt's scanner.)

Reality.

2010-11-14T05:33:00.013-05:00

Watched the match with the Fambam and Bf. Good times.

Pinoy Pride!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Manny Pacquiao vs Antonio Margarito
(Boxing match photos via Usa Today)
Yuppp, got 'em in the end. 12 rounds, no knock outs. Still, good match.

Anywhooo.....
Hmmm. So, I was browsing through my feeds after the match. I love how people can be so ignorant. It just amuses the fuck out of me.

I don't have hatred amongst races. I just loathe how much imbecility a person can still have nowadays. A lot of people do not grasp the fact of reality. Just because you're Caucasian, African-American, Asian, or whatever, doesn't mean shit. It's not necessary for discrimination. I swear. You don't see me talking shit about your kind just because the draft of wind changed. This isn't Burger King; you can't always have it your way.

P.S.: The Like and Dislike buttons are in. For the lazy people like me, here's an easier way to express your opinion. =]

Cool Kids.

2010-11-13T20:32:00.005-05:00

Thursday, Nov. 11th.

Went to the Big Apple with the funniest, coolest kids ever. =] They are awesome. We sang, danced, and stabbed people. Had a blast.

Marc (Altrez) x Henny

Marvin the Martian

A Tribe Called Fresh!

Yo, sorry for the influx of "Oh, shit!"s.

"Living La Vida Loca."

2010-11-10T22:56:00.007-05:00

Just kidding. Lol. Shit. I haven't been doing anything lately.

UGGGGHHHHHH, it's aggravating. So not like me, but shit happens for a reason, right? Who knows.

This picture pretty much sums it up...

Welcome to my life.
(2009-2010)

WMMD! [1]

2010-11-09T18:45:00.004-05:00

Made my day. =]

And, H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y ! !

Current Events. (10)

2010-11-06T03:09:00.028-04:00

I can't sleep, so I decided to do something different.

Yesterday.

Bf took me out to see Megamind. It was an interestingly good story that was wrapped around a fucked-up love triangle. Lol.

ANDDDD in two weeks, HARRY POTTER's premiere!!!! =]

Peeped it at the parking lot. Lol.

LAST WEEK.
LEAVES!
(Papa's sweater, XL sweater, Mama's leopard-print pajamas, Papa's slippers) Nice outfit. Lol.

Happy Halloween. =]

I tried putting 'LIKE' and 'DISLIKE' buttons, but they just won't show up... =/

Yeah man,

2010-10-29T15:56:00.005-04:00

I just pulled a Rihanna.

Jk. Lol.

"Give me liberty,

2010-10-26T01:00:00.011-04:00

or give me death!"

I'm just aggravated at the fact that some people have the fucking nerves to tell others what they can or cannot be. Everybody is his or her own person.

Wonder why I really don't go to church? I mean, I'm not an atheist. I have my own beliefs. I just don't believe in organized religion. I always thought that 'God' created everybody as equals, but then again homosexuals are looked down upon. Why? Supposedly, homosexuality is mentioned in the Bible as a sin. Also, the Bible states that the sanctity of marriage is between a man and a woman; therefore, two men or two women, who are in love, can't marry. For me, it just doesn't make any sense. Anywho... Christianity, in general, is a whole bunch of hypocrisy split into 124829038 different denominations. I could ramble about this forever, but it's not my place to. I'm not educated enough to really make an impression in regard to any religion.

I know the feeling of not having anybody to speak to. I don't like being lonely. It sucks. I've been there, and I understand when people say that they are alone.

There are billions of people in this world, and I bet that there is at least one or two people that are dependable. Don't give up.

Whenever I'm in a position that I can't get a hold of anybody to talk to, I get so furious and I always think that nobody cares about me. I feel neglected, but I came to realization that that is not the truth; it's just reality. I mean, I think even 911 puts people on hold.
Here's a temporary solution... What I do is I write. I take a blank piece of paper and drown it with my sorrows. It's a way for taking out nonsensical thoughts away from my head. It serves as a replacement for somebody who I usually bitch to. Lol. I give this method two thumbs up as a mechanism to whinge freely.

Anywho...

Enjoy the freedom of being an individual. Don't ever create self-loathe from others' assumptions. Stay true to yourself.

Smile. =]

2010-10-20T02:28:00.003-04:00

SOME PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN HOW TO STOP RUNNING THEIR MOUTHS. GROW SOME BALLS AND TALK TO ME INSTEAD OF VOICING YOUR SHIT TO OTHER PEOPLE. LIKE REALLY?

IT'S MY MOTHERFUCKING BLOG, SO I COULD REALLY CARE LESS ABOUT YOUR GOTDAMN FEELINGS.

HAVE A GREAT FUCKING DAY.

Kean University!

2010-10-18T01:58:00.014-04:00

I went to Kean to visit the one and only Shaywayyyy. I love that girl!!! =p Anywho, we had fun and met a couple of cool kids. And yes, for once, I'm showing off my insecurities. FTW. LOL. Nahh, I was wearing that top because I wanted to show off my tattoo in public for once. I actually changed into something else because I wasn't feeling comfortable, but Shay told me to change back. Lol.

Enjoy the pics, and I apologize for the lack of variety. I didn't want to take my camera with me because I didn't want to fuck it up. Yeahh, there were too many party-fouls that happened. Good thing that I didn't take my baby with me. People just like spilling shit all over. Haha. Motherfuckers..

So far, I find college pretty amusing.

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She spelled her name wrong. Ha.

WTF is up with my hand?? Lol.

HAAAAAAAAAA.

HHHHAAAAAAAAA x 2.

♥ ♥ ♥

No plastics.

I ♥ Boobies!

POW CHICKA WOW WOW!

B. C. S.

2010-10-12T17:03:00.001-04:00

I am officially in the statistics of being a broke, college student.
I quit Charlotte Russe last week, and I just quit Tilly's today.

It just didn't feel right anymore...

FTW!

2010-10-09T23:22:00.008-04:00

My patience finally ran out. I'm drained. He's drained. We are both getting sick of all that nonsensical fighting; I'm sure of it. All I want is time, attention, affection, and all the other stuff I told Him about. He knows and He tries. He is such an amazing person. I appreciate Him dearly, but sometimes things are just not meant to be. It's funny because when we're good, it's like peanut butter and jelly. When we're bad, it's like oil and water. I feel like I'm always getting the last minute. I hate getting the crumbs. I feel like a fucking beggar waiting for people to throw me leftovers. Whatever happened to MY piece? Motherfucking people are so hungry that they took my shit, too. Fuckers. ARGGGGGGGGG. I'm frustrated, pissed, confused, sad, and whatever negative connotation in regard to my situation.

I was fine before; I'll be fine later though.

I try not to be selfish, but human beings are innately like that. I mean like shit, but what the fuck... Some people just don't fucking think. I've been through that phase, but I never ruin anybody else's shits. I'm so sick and tired of being so sick and tired. So, fuck it.

From now on, it's all about me.

Fuck everybody.

Fuck the world.

Sovereignty

2010-10-06T21:56:00.011-04:00

"I can never stop drinking,

but I can stop getting drunk."

HAHAHA. I had told everyone that I am not an alcoholic. I was only going through a phase. Yes, I can admit to the fact that I did have some issues with alcohol, but not anymore. I've been sober. I drink occasionally, but I haven't been white-boy-wasted for quite some time now.

It's so amusing to me that an alcoholic beverage is literally adjacent to where I'm sitting, and I'm not even temped. The irony of it all is that I feel rejuvenated and free!!! I have achieved liberty from all those chaotic times and breakdowns. No more cravings. Now, I can honestly look back and just laugh at my stupidness. Oh man. I feel like this is the first time that I actually have complete control over ME. I am the master of myself and the power feels great!

And no more 40s; I switched to Four Lokos.

Haha. JK.

Piercing or Tattoo?

2010-09-28T00:13:00.006-04:00

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I am in need of something that falls into the line with using needles.

I want to get my lip pierced, but I don't know if I should do the bottom lip or a monroe... And for the tattoo, I just want to add on to my previous tattoos on my ribs.

6 Gauge.

2010-09-22T19:59:00.003-04:00

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I don't really know what my actual size is, but I currently have a 6 gauge (UV) on. I had the same gauge in a 10, but when I put on an 8 gauge taper, it went right through. I wasted like 15 bucks. Arggggg. Anywho, it went from an 18 gauge to a 6 gauge from July to September. Pretty freaking awesomeeee! =]

2010-09-17T23:19:00.004-04:00

Why

happiness

a l w a y s

ephemeral…?

I feel like there's some type of chemical imbalance occurring in my noggin. I'm not the relationship-type person. It's funny to me how I'm trying to hold on to something I don't really ever think of. I'm more towards that free-spirited, hippie mentality. I'm exhausted from nonsensical stress because of this damn relationship. I always tell myself that it will all be worth it in the end... But in reality, when is the end? How do I determine that? Ehhhhhh, no more thoughts.

Oh geez, no. I'm not trying to be emo(tional). I'm just pissedddddddddddd. ARG.

I worked from 9 am to 10 pm tonight. I wanted to release some negativity by diverting my mind into something else. All I wanted was to just sit down and speak about nonsensical bullshit. Unfortunately, I'm not that important...

Fillerrrrrr.

2010-09-15T22:06:00.009-04:00

Sorryyyy, my Canada pictures are on hold at the moment. I go to school on Tuesday-Thursday and I work Friday to Monday. Make sense? Lol. Yeah, absolutely no time. Arggg. =/

Anywho, here's a little something-something...

I look like an idiot. It's all good. =] And my camera is so off-focused. Haha! He's so damn tall, that's why.

Apparently, we have two different anniversary dates. They are July 6th and October 10th. I like celebrating relationship events, but He doesn't. =/ Hopefully, we do something next month.

COLLEGEEE.

2010-09-09T17:28:00.005-04:00

I ~~love~~ hate college, but I love drinkin'....

Tell me why I had to take remedial English?! My dumbass didn't take the placement test seriously.. SMH. Like, why the fuck did this kid say 'sometimes' is a noun. WTF....? I almost shit my pants, laughing. Haha. Also, this class is a non-credited course. It sucks. I'm technically taking 9 credits. ARG. I can't take any of my other classes because this damn English class is a prerequisite.

Bonus:

Peep this. =]

Canada (Day 1)

2010-09-04T02:37:00.005-04:00

My mom decided to go to Canada with no kind of plan. So, we did not do much at all. I wanted to go home the first day we got there. Lol. I was excited at first, but my folks wouldn't let me go by myself. I still find it kind of amusing since I go to NYC whenever I want to.

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I packed about 2 weeks worth of clothing. We only stayed there for 4 days though. Lol.

On the way to the boarder.

The immigration officer yelled at me for having my camera out.

Niagara Falls

On the way to Toronto.

Knocked the fuck out. Haha.

Traffic. =/

Sunset

We visited my mom's friend from college.

We didn't really do much. In summary, we went to Niagara Falls on the Canadian side, went to the hotel, went out to eat, then went to my mom's friend's house.

P.S.: I have way more pictures, but I'm too lazy to upload all of them. Lol. Sorry.

THE END.

10 Gauge.

2010-09-03T18:29:00.006-04:00

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I'm currently on a 10 gauge. It actually went from an 18 gauge to a 10 gauge in two weeks. Lol. I'm staying on this size for a bit though.

Yes, this is a filler. Lol.

I'll be back with more awesomeness from my trip and other bullshits. =p

2010-09-01T18:27:00.003-04:00

I've been feeling down. I'm about to pull a Britney-Spears; you know, take my anger out on my hair. I just realized that I will NEVER be somebody's top priority. When I was little, I was my momma's numero uno. I took that for granted. I didn't know that she was going to bear another child. And, EW! to the thought of conception. BUT SHIT, FUCKKK. I'm not trying to be selfish, but realizing that kind of added stress to the situations that I'm in. Why is it so hard to let go of some things in life? I wonder why I can't be how I used to be. I kind of liked being my own person. I love to be oblivious. I love being in my own lala-land and enjoying things in life. I didn't give a fuck who laughed, and I sure as hell didn't give a fuck who cried. Where did I go? I don't feel like myself. I lost it.

I'm disintegrating, bits by bits.

2010-08-26T01:55:00.003-04:00

I'm currently in Downtown Toronto,
and I'm homesick. =/

On the other hand,
I'm spending quality time with the fambam. =]

I'll surely have some pictures up
once I get back to Jersey. =P

Canada!

2010-08-20T17:21:00.007-04:00

Been working like crazy because I need to pay for my books and the gratuitous tickets that I had earned like two weeks ago.

I shall be in Canada from August 25th to the 29th. I'll be in downtown Toronto! Come find me. =]

School starts on August 31st, and Bf's birthday is on Sept 2nd. Please don't penalize me for the lack of posts. I'll try my best to squeeze in some things. =]

Bonus:
Pictures from this Weekend!

From Shay's camera.

Bf and my two asshole bestfriends who wouldn't let me play beer pong. Lol.

2010-08-16T23:19:00.006-04:00

He said that he didn't tell her because he thinks she's crazy. . . ? Did that even make any sense? How dare he try to reason with her about hiding/lying about the most nonsensical bullshits ever. He was the one who told her not to be doing what he had done. Also, he said that it was not that serious, whatever it was... then why? She asked him a couple of times about them, and the stories had changed. She noticed, but did not speak. It was not worth it.

She felt, and will continue to feel, no remorse for hypocrites.

Imbalance?

2010-08-12T13:37:00.012-04:00

I would rather be with somebody who embodies the complete opposite of who I am. We learn from each other. The differences that we grow to accept just makes our love stronger. It's not as an uncanny concept as it seems; it's oddly common and attainable.

He is my other half.

He makes me whole.

ANYWHOOOO...

I actually took off about four days from work to enjoy some free time. I could've done a lot more, but eh... shit happens. Lol.

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The pictures are in order from newest to oldest.

I got pulled over around 1:30 am.. The policeman gave me a ticket for speeding. It sucks. FML!!!!!!!!! And later on that day, around 7 pm, I got pulled over again. Yeahhh, speeding. Lol. This one was nice, and gave me something minute. But still, fuck my life. UGHHHHHHHHHH!

Red and blue makes purple. Lol.

Happy 20th birthday!!!!

Love you!!!!

Thursday, August 5th.

I love museums! I love learning about other people's cultures, histories, and everything in between. Bf is not a really big fan. We actually had a dispute in regards to this ignorant comment he made. I just don't approve of people depriving others from knowledge and open-mindedness.

My ancestor. =]

Wonder why we don't have a pic together? He hates pictures. Kind of ironic actually since I do photography as a hobby.. SMFH! It infuriates me a little bit.

2010-08-04T20:28:00.003-04:00

I NEED A VACATION

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Asap-sap.

That is all.

Current Events. (9)

2010-08-02T02:13:00.009-04:00

I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I have to get up at 4 am to get ready for work, and it's currently 1:42 am.

I need to manage my anger issues. Anywho, Bf and I are still together. It seems to be impossible to split us up. Beats me. We argue. I mean, I'm just loud when we do. Lol. it's my coping mechanism which I now realize.. It's definitely not the best one, but I haven't developed a better one. I love Him regardless on anything. It's just that I have a short fuse, and it's taking a toll on both of us.

Ugh.

And, I easily need to get me an SB flash.

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Friday, July 30th.

I started stretching (gauging) my earlobes with a 14 gauge. I'm taking my time on doing this, and I've done my research. My earlobes will go back to normal. I'm only going as far as a 2 gauge. Well, at least that's what the plan is.

Chilled with some of the homies.

By the pool.

Saturday, July 31st.

♥♥♥

Yeah. Since I've cut down on alcohol, my body can no longer intake as much as I could before. I am proud to say that I am a lightweight. =] Also, excuse the nastiness of my face's entirety.

It's 2:14 am. Time for me to get some sleep. Oh yeah, I took off from work starting Tuesday to Saturday. I'll definitely have time to fuck with my blog. =]

Ta-ta.

To whom it may concern:

2010-07-26T21:03:00.023-04:00

Dear _____,

One of the few reasons for me not to want to prolong this any longer is the fact that I am too fucking stressed out to deal with bullshit. I would fucking assume that you would be the person to make me feel better, but in actuality, you make me feel like shit. I feel pathetic that you only do shit for me when you feel sorry or emote to some kind sympathy. A person can only take so much. I am a bitch when it comes to this, but I can't help it. I do not like the feeling of vulnerability; you don't neither. You should be the first person to understand why I act like this. Don't tell me to STOP because it'll go in one ear and out the other.

I'm done listening to bullshit promises. They are getting fucking old. You cannot apologize any longer; I will no longer be empathetic. I don't fucking understand why you give false hope. WHY IN THE FUCKING HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT? AND THEN FUCKING APOLOGIZE? Come on. You already know me. Why are you doing this knowing how I would react when you fucking fail me once again? On some real shit, no more. I don't like to fucking play. Emotions are not to be toyed with.

I am not difficult to please. I am materialistic, but I manage to supply my addiction since I have two fucking jobs. I only want memories. I want you to come with me to places where people can see the glisten in my eyes when you smile at me. I want kisses here and there. I want you to hold my hands, look into my eyes, and tell me that you love me. The thing is, I shouldn't have to tell you this, nor even hint it. It's fairly simple, and it doesn't cost a thing. You and I both know that I rarely ask for anything else.

Sometimes I believe that you only love the IDEA of us. You're not genuinely happy. I don't think you are. I don't want to be a filler for your void. I want to be the reason. You say I am, but I don't feel it. I try, but you are hindering me to. Actions speak louder than words is what I tell you all the time.

I have a citadel of hatred, but I still let you in. I keep myself protected because I know what kind of pain and agony it can create. I depended on you, but you have failed me. The monotony of this all just keeps destroying my mind. It's annihilating every ounce of patience I have. I don't know what to do anymore, so I'm writing a letter that I would never send to you. If you read this, that's all on you. I'll listen to whatever you have to say. I'll go along with whatever you want to do. I had investigated every corner of our status, and I assure you that I will be just fine regardless of anything that happens.

P.S.: Look on the bright side, at least you wouldn't have to deal with my bitchings anymore.

With love,

Mikki.

Ranting.

2010-07-24T02:59:00.009-04:00

People are shallow. No human can tell me that they do not judge. It's impossible since it's a natural intuition. Appearance definitely plays a huge role. When I got my hair chopped off, I felt like Samson when he lost all of his strength because that bitch Delilah did him wrong. I'm growing my hair out once again, and will start gauging my ears next week. And no, I am not changing, nor becoming some sort of emo. Lol, that's what one of my friends said. I just want to try new things. You only live once. I don't want to bombard myself with what-ifs.

I love observing people; not in a stalker manner. Lol. I love watching how their reactions affect one another. People feed off of other's energy. I like learning the gamuts of gestures in random interactions. I love noticing reiterations of females' subtle implications of flirting towards the male audiences. I find it fairly hilarious. The people who knows me knows that I don't pay attention to males, nor anybody who likes to stare. At the point that they don't even have the confidence to say anything just amuses me, but they have the nerves to do some eye-fucking cracks me up even more.

Every normal person is born with the sense of common knowledge. It is just that.. not all of us use it; thus, the birth of ignoramuses. They lurk the streets of today's society, and it saddens me that some people can still reach that level of imbecility.

Last thing,
don't waste your brain away.
Think.

Until we meet again...

Current Events. (8)

2010-07-18T15:26:00.003-04:00

Yupp.

Me, Myself, and I. =]

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I've been working, working, working and working. I won't have a day off until this Tuesday, and the next one is up in the air at the moment. My store manager at Charlotte Russe is starting to despise me... Haha. I don't really give a fuck, at the fact that I'll be making more money than her in a couple of years. She can suck my left tit.

Bf and I have our good ones and bad ones. I yell too much and can't keep my mouth shut. I get mad at petty shits just because they're the most annoying, especially if He does them over and over and over and over again. Evidently, He doesn't like the yelling, so he gets pissed. Two aggravated people are always up to no good. Sometimes, I just don't want to deal with bullshit, but I feel like it'll be all worth it in the end. I don't want to lose Him over something so minute. I just need to handle my rage and bitchiness. AND, the thing that He can improve on is being on time. He's ALWAYS late. That's what gasses up my full-on bitch mode. Ultimately, we love each other and we make each other happy regardless of the dumb shits we put each other through. We both don't know how good we got it. Lol.

I went to the Village a couple of days ago, and I must say that it was pretty awesome.

ALSO, I saw Despicable Me (one of my new favorite movies) and Predators; they were both amazing.

That's about it. And, you know what's funny? I always carry my camera, but seem to not have any photos. Lol. I need to stop being lazy.

But, I haven't slept. Bf and I had some quality time last night, and I had work at 8 am.

Yeah, it's nap time.
Later. =]

CLEARANCE!

2010-07-11T23:43:00.008-04:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE BARGAINS! I love them.

I had went on a little shopping today. I got 2 jackets, 2 sweaters, 2 pairs of pants, a dress, a skirt, and bracelets for exactly $84.02; that is not bad at all, in my opinion at least. I would take pictures, but I'm a little short on time at the moment. A lot has been happening, and this should serve as a little filler.

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Look what I found, literally like a minute and a half ago:

Apparently, these sandals are on clearance because the company had deducted 2 cents from the original price? Lol. SMH.

Weekend!

2010-07-05T11:58:00.012-04:00

Take a gander at the fact that I didn't put 'Independence' or '4th of July' because all of these were randomness. Lol. Well, to me at least. I was not planning on doing shit, at all. Haha,

Weekend was bittersweet. Ultimately, it was pretty damn fun. =]

I should've taken pictures and videos of Miriam hugging the toilet bowl while puking in it. HAHAHA.

Anywho, enjoy these shits. =]

Alcohol: $350
Hot Tub: $(I don't know, but it probably cost a lot of money)
Memories: Priceless!!!!!!!

LOL.

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(Via iPhone.)

6 cases of 30 Coors Light.

From left to right: Nuvo, Ciroc, Malibu, 99 Bananas, Smirnoff Watermelon, 99 Oranges, Malibu, 99 Oranges, Vodca Exclusiv, Vodca Exlusiv, Jose Cuervo.

(Via D40.)

Yezrr. =]

♥ ♥ ♥

My girls! =]

FIN.

And, all the alcohol was gone by the morning. Lol.

More pics to come, Shay had her camera with her also. I'm waiting for her to send them to me. =]

2010-07-03T18:53:00.002-04:00

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes; I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

— Marilyn Monroe

Twilight Saga: Eclipse

2010-07-01T02:50:00.010-04:00

Here are the other two: Twilight Saga

HOLY SHIZNIT! This could not wait any longer. I just saw the film today, and it was pretty damn good. Not like Johnny-Depp-films good, but enough to anticipate the next film.

By the way, Kristen Stewart needs to talk to her dentist about her buck teeth. She needs to get them filed down; apparently, she can't keep her mouth closed.

I'm not into Bella Swan being such a slut, but I actually liked the movie's entirety. The corniness and the suckiness of the quality in the director's point of view made the movie suitable for everyone to enjoy, if that even made sense.

(Dakota Fanning should not be a vampire.)

Jacob is soooooooooooooo hot-hot-hot-hot, but I'm still Team Edward because at the fact that he loves Bella so much, regardless of her whore-ness. I give him props on withstanding all that hell she had put him through. The shits that she did hurt me all the way over here. If I was Edward, I'd kill the bitch.

P.S.: They definitely need more (good-looking) girls in Forks Town, Washington. SMH.

Anywho, I'll stop talking about it because I don't want to mention anything that might spoil the movie.

Day Off!

2010-06-29T17:33:00.011-04:00

Evidently, there are no changes to my layout. Lol. I couldn't manage to do it. Haha, yes, I FAILED.

Anywho, today is my day off. I have been working so much that I don't know what to do, so I'm about to bombard this post with nonsensical photos. =]

Enjoy.

And, it's definitely not photography;

it's more like reality.

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Current Events.

Summer 2010

Last night. Haha. =]

Loving my paper fedora with my x-large shirt. =]

New York Shitty.

Last week. =]

Finally done with his military duty. Government is paying him to shut the fuck up. SMH.

In the Village.

Sangria. =]

Washington Square.

Paisley yin and yang!

And yes, jean vests are still in style. =]

Times Square.

Naked Cowgirl. =]

The End.

2010-06-27T23:46:00.002-04:00

Attempting to change the layout, knowing that I gots to work at 6 am.

YAY ME!

GRADUAT10N!

2010-06-25T23:06:00.014-04:00

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June 18, 2010.

It ended.

The journey is over.

It's time to start fresh,

and be the director of my life.

I'm finally out of this shit hole, also known as NHS! HAHA, just kidding. I feel such relief waking up the next day not worrying about unfinished homework and such. Time to move on into reality and join all the other failures of this Earth. HAHA. Just kidding, again. I'll be successful in the long run. I don't think college is ready for me. Haha.

I'll miss high school though, one of these days.

Also, I am trying to update my blog as much as I can, but I have two jobs. My managers talked me into it. =] It's working so far.

My mom tried convincing me to buy a BCBG dress, and I straight declined it. I went to XXI and spend about $35 on my whole she-bang. =] Yes, I'm cheap, regardless if she was going to pay for it.

Daddy-O!

YES!!!!!

(Peep the edit. Lol.)

Cousin. =]

BAM!

Trying to be like High School Musical.

He got to my graduation about 20 minutes after it ended. Haha, it's all good. He tried, and the cause was pretty reasonable.

So long to Newton High School's Class of 2010.

I'm a loner, been a loner. Lol. Haven't you realized that? =] Sorry for the lack of variety in my pictures.

But got-damn-it,

FUTURE,

here I come!

2010-06-21T14:47:00.002-04:00

I'm HERE!!

I'll post some ish ups some time this week.

PROMISE. =]

Current Events. (7)

2010-06-13T02:49:00.003-04:00

The pictures are in chronological order from newest to oldest. I don't remember the specific dates at the moment. Well, enjoy my nonsensical bullshits.

BTW, I gave Charlotte Russe my two weeks. I got hired at Tilly's, and I started yesterday. It's wayyyyyyyy better, but I can't really get too comfortable; let's see where this goes. If it doesn't go well, one door closes, another one opens. Also, I'm applying at ShopRite and Dunkin' Donuts; I needs me a graveyard shift.

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Fams got me early graduat10n presents. =]

Hello Kitty!!!

Momma got too lazy to even wrap it. Lol. SMH.

Philippine Independence Day Parade.

NEW YORK SHITTY.

THE END.

Cleansing.

2010-06-09T12:18:00.003-04:00

In the process of deleting some posts...

ARG!

2010-06-02T12:42:00.008-04:00

I loathe it when they tell me yes, but, in reality, it's a no. I don't like it when they tell me that they'll do something, but don't do it. Just shut the fuck up, I mean in general. I hate getting disappointed. I can't depend on anybody at all, nor do I even like it. This is just some bullshit. Like, what the fuckingfuck is wrong with some people these days? This is just another reiteration of I-am-sorry and Do-not-be-mad conversations. I'm so fucking sick of it. I am frustrated. All the fucking words that were said mean nothing if failure always happens. An array of mistakes has already surpassed the amount for me to depend on them again.

Like, for real.. On the simplest shits?

So long, sucka.

Newton High School

2010-05-29T15:00:00.009-04:00

YES, for all of you who didn't already know, I am a SEN10R in high school.

NHS has to be one of the shittiest schools that I have ever been a part of. On some real shit, what kind of school has paper shortages? WTF. HAHAHA.

They fucked me over several times, and I am so fucking ready to fucking leave. YES!

Tell me why this person in guidance didn't send my transcript after I had told her 3 times. I asked her around February or March, and she just sent that shit like two and a half weeks ago. It's May. SMH at the failures of the faculty staff of NHS. Not all are racist and ignorant, some are actually the best teachers who taught me a lot of life lessons, helped me through struggles, and got me out of a lot of bullshit.

Also, I still remember that vice principal's secretary talking shit about me while I was sitting right in front of her. She thought I left, but her computer screen was blocking my face. FAIL! Dumbshits.

Anywho, I love my English class,

and mostly everybody in it. Haha.

Here's an example of what we do.

My school is too broke to have real books,

so we have to share photocopies.

I'm the best. Lol.

Addicting Pain.

2010-05-26T13:27:00.007-04:00

Whenever I feel the needle touch my skin, I calm down. You know, like relax. I love the feeling of it. It hurts, but it doesn't. Not the sensation in 'pain is pleasure' thing. The feeling is different; it's extraordinary.

My parents' names.

Ambigrams are awesome.

A short video from when Miriam and I went to the tat shop.

I'm finishing up my side, then I'm done; no more tattoos. I've been told by a few people that I'm addicted to it, but nah. At least, I hope not. Lol.

Patience

2010-05-21T01:00:00.001-04:00

is a virtue.

But, I loathe it when people tell me that they'll call me back and never do... Fuck waiting.

Déjà Vu

2010-05-06T20:18:00.013-04:00

Waking up in the morning, feeling like the whole world just crashed onto Me. WTF?

I don't necessarily understand what it is, but I know that it's not good. I don't need crocodile tears, nor am I asking for pity; sympathy, maybe. I do acknowledge the fact that I am more fortunate than other people, but I won't compare my adversities to others'. And, isn't it kind of fucked up to look at somebody else's misfortunes for the better of one's self? Selfishness is human intuition, but it shouldn't be intended. In my opinion, at least.

I honestly don't know what to do. I have been fine for 2 or 3 years, and this nonsense is back. I have not felt like this for a while now. I am so angry, but don't have anything to be mad about. This indescribable anguish is consuming every inch of my body and mind. It's calling for all inhumane pains to scatter all over my nervous system. I have no control. I'm lost. My mind is filled with conundrums, but also occupied with emptiness. The gamut of sorrows couldn't even sum up to this bullshit...

I feel like ripping my skull open. I want to find out what in the fuck is causing this. Really. Don't need this, not right now.

There is something wrong; I don't know if it's me, or something else.

Bonus: Via iPhone.

May 6, 2010.

Got mad at some bullshit, and this is what had happened. Nothing like the good 'ol times. =|

Needed something, and I got this. It's insufficient, so I shall be back with some more. Evidenlty, it's not done.

P.S.:
Do not depend on anybody,
because at the end of the day,
it's every man for himself.

2010-05-02T18:14:00.000-04:00

My heart is shattered.

I shall hide in my cave now.

Later.

I'll be back, promise.

6 Flags

2010-04-25T03:56:00.010-04:00

Great Adventure

Pedophiliac much? HAHA.

Uhhh no, because now he has a mini-me, who looks creepy as fuck.

Meet, Little 6.

OK, so I've been dying to go to 6 Flags for the longest. I'm assuming they tweaked a lot of their policies because their business was going down the drain. First of all, they don't have the cubbies anymore; the place where people can put their shit when they're about to go on the ride. They have automated lockers now. People would have to pay one dollar for each time they get on a ride, if they have purses, bags, drinks, and etc. I mean, I have been there once, and I don't remember them having shit like that.

I don't have a lot pictures because I left my camera in my car. I was not trying to pay a dollar for each time I got on a ride, yet alone having singles on me.

Oh yeah, I saw this girl on the Superman ride with unshaved armpits. YUCK! Lol. That is all.

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I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Apparently, Bf doesn't. Lol.

Other than the bullshit, it was fun.

Via iPhone.

Cousin who I grew up with back in the Philippines.

LOL.

This was the moment where I almost bust my face.

"What's love got to do, . . .

2010-04-21T12:58:00.004-04:00

go to do with it?"

Teenage relationships are usually based on physical attraction. I mean, people have their standards, but none the less, it's all about the appearance.

Sex is not as a big deal as it was before. Nowadays, it's just like kissing. At least, I would assume because from what I see in commercials, movies, shows and songs. Sex is advertised everywhere.

I believe that most teenagers think about copulating somebody/ies of the same and/or opposite sex almost every second of the day. It's funny how men can talk about it with no problem, but it's awkward if women do. Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck about that shit. I am open with my sexuality, at the right time. Meaning, I don't just blurt out nonsensical sex escapades like I have some kind of tourettes. No offense.

I was going through Facebook, and I perceived that people go in and out relationships like a penis to a vagina. I always notice that people mention their partners as the 'love of my life', and then break up in a week or two.. WTF? Make up your damn mind. Emotions are not toys; they are not to be played with.

Fornication has got to be the worst and best thing that has ever happened in human evolution.

Bonus:

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Currently obsessed with these Nine West boots. =]

Current Events. (6)

2010-04-21T03:12:00.005-04:00

I shall try to put these in chronological order, but I highly doubt they will be. Lol. To sum it all up, my schedule was and still is consisted of SCHOOL, WORK, and BOYFRIEND.

Haha, my spring break was basically work and hangin' out with these people. Honestly, I have always thought that good-men were extinct, until Bf came along. =]

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Men at work. Lol. =p

Btw, he's got a twin.

Easter.

The monotonous path I drive on every time I go to work.

And yes,

this post is

waaaayyyyy

overdue.

Blubber Nuggets!

2010-04-12T00:00:00.011-04:00

"They're chewy!"

I got called fat the other day. I know that I'm not Nicole-Richie skinny, but damn.

Apparently, I'm 10 pounds overweight for my height. SO, I always try to use the excuse that each boob weighs 5 pounds. LOL.

My mom has called me a whale before, oh yeah, and a pig. I don't know, but I think she has a thing for comparing me to animals. Haha. OUCH. Another instance was when my godfather walked into my abode, and the first few words that came out his mouth were: "Mikki, are you gaining weight?" Not even a hello.

I'm sorry, but I love food. I mean like, I don't eat fast food anyways. I eat healthy food, just an abundance of it. Haha. I also have a thing for chocolate; that brown, succulent, sweet, ambrosial, mouth-watering heaven on earth. YUMMMMMM.

My ultimate favorite!

Black Sheep

2010-04-09T23:28:00.006-04:00

Have you any wool?

It's funny how some things that are so obvious are mistakenly becoming subtle. It's not clear anymore; it seems like it melted, or dissolved, you know? Like, blended in.

Clearly, I'm not your typical person. What I noticed was that people see me as the best person, and some see me as the most horrid thing there is. No in-betweens. It's funny how people generalize who they think I am, but in reality, it is broader than that. I don't understand why people are so judgmental, especially adults. It hurts to hear that people think that I'm a bad influence. I'm not. Well, at least, I don't think so. I don't like being the one who is compared to the do-not-do-that list. I got my family members looking at me and telling younger kids to not be like me. HAHA. They point at my tattoos, and shake their heads simultaneously. From my knowledge, grown-ups are supposed to be more understanding and accepting. Since they have been in situations adolescence have been or are going through, they should be more knowledgeable about the hardships and all the other drama shit.

As you all know, I'm Filipina. My culture has extremities. There is no in-betweens. They have the richest, and they have dirt poor. They have the drop-dead gorgeous, and they have the dead-look-a-likes. Really. Anywho, for my family, I'm the pariah. It doesn't have to be said. It is so fucking obvious. I wouldn't say that I'm a badass; I just have a mind of my own. I'm a pain in the ass, yes, but I have more common sense than most teenagers do. I've been there done that. I don't need to learn it later because I've been through it before. Yes, I chose and still choose to learn the hard way rather than listening to people, especially my parents. I'd rather live life filled with lessons from my mistakes, rather than listening to old people compare and contrast their bullshit to mines. HAHA.
I'm a liberal, for the most part. I try to be more open-minded because new ideas can lead to way more possibilities and opportunities. I have been told by various people that I was born in the wrong time, like my age doesn't coincide with my mentality. Not on some cocky bullshit, but I believe that they are correct. Lol.

Anywhooooo.

Evidently,

I'm in between.

Funny!

2010-04-03T02:34:00.014-04:00

Doesn't it suck to find out that the person you love tells you that they're in love with somebody else the day after you guys fornicated? Well shit, if that happened to me, it would definitely burst my bubble.

I asked my friend, "Why did you have sex with him even if you knew that he doesn't like you?" She answered, "Because I wanted to."

HAHA! Some people are just inevitably unbelievable. Yupp, that made my day, but the 70-dollar overdraft fees from my bank account ruined it.

Some recent pics that does not coincide with whatever I was talking about previously. Haha. Enjoy. =]

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My FamBam's epic-ness. =P

2010-04-01T00:59:00.000-04:00

I'm pregnant.

Current Events. (5)

2010-03-27T15:46:00.012-04:00

AYYYYYYY SHIT. Sorry. I've been feeling like wanting to shoot myself for the longest because teachers have been inconsiderate at the fact that their students have their own life. Well, I finished everything I had to do. HAHA! And I worked the whole week. I am a motherfucking beast!

So, I had to write a short telenovela. It was about Stephania who fell in love with Roberto. She thought that Roberto was going to ask her to marry him, but in truth, he was just going to come out of the closet. He called Juan over, and tried to reason with Stephania, but she couldn't handle the truth! She was only used by Roberto to cover up his true colors. Yeah, and she was impregnated with Roberto's seed. - Lol, long story short.

Yesterday, I finished the whole project 3 hours before it was due, but 2 hours before I had to go to school. Lol. HAHA. SUCKS. Basically, I had an hour of sleep. I had work from 2 pm to 6 pm. Imagine how tired I was. Holy motherfucking shit. After work, Bf and I went out to eat at AppleBees, and went to the movies to see Hot Tub Time Machine. It was actually really funny. I didn't want to see it at first because the of its title; it's just corny out the ass. To my surprise, it was definitely fucking hilarious. Yeah, anything about drugs and sex is definitely humorous. Lol. I'm going to write a review soon, hopefully.

Trust me, as soon as I get the ample amount of time to ponder about life, I shall type down the most intellectual shit ever! Yeahhh, I'm still here; alive and breathing. =]

Oh yeahhh, and this kid kept me busy.

"Happy happy joy joy!"

......!

2010-03-19T20:36:00.003-04:00

You know what fucking sucks? Feeling like the biggest fucking idiot in the whole gotdamn universe. I hate being disappointed. I fucking hate depending on people to bring forth some light in my life. I fucking give up. I feel like straight shit. I so fucking love it when people plan shit like a week ahead, and stand you up the last minute. Fuck this bullshit. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. FUckidifuckidifuckkkkk. I'm the biggest fucking loser in the damn world. Everybody should just leave me the fuck alone. I wish to life that I can survive alone, but no... This fucked up reality has to be fucking dependent on people working together. Yeah, ok. NOBODY WILL EVER BE THERE FOR YOU!!!! Gotta learn to fucking stand up on your own. In the end, people are fucked up, and they are selfish. FUCK FUCK FUCJdklhasludgfhliwurghkabfm,snbg ilwruhgleowgn,wmbgaowiurhgne,kbjfilugh. Bye.

Change!

2010-03-13T19:38:00.007-05:00

I felt like I needed to do something different. I've been thinking of getting piercings, but I'm too much of a pussy to get them. Lol. AND, my parents disapprove. But, I'm planning to get my belly-button and my bottom lip pierced by winter of 2010-2011. =]

Anywhoooo, this girl told me that life is too short; she is definitely correct. So.. I got a haircut. Haha.

Shitty weather in Jersey.

Goodbye, hair. =|

VOILA!!!

Series of unfortunate events…

2010-03-08T03:07:00.008-05:00

March 5th.

OH MY FUCKING GOSH. This gotta be one of the worst days, ever.

I had a break down. I don't necessarily want to assume what it was for, but I was feeling like shit. I was getting desperate for sleep, so I turned to alcohol. I know that it's a depressant, but I felt like I had no choice. I drank around 12 am or 1 am. I had school in the morning. I woke up late, so I went to this counselor so I can skip my first period class, which was gym. I sat there, and talked about my little episode. Talking makes anybody feel better, in my opinion at least. Anywho, I'm not going to go in depth with that.

I got called down to the nurse's office from the intercom, but my lazy behind didn't feel like walking. Eh, the people sent somebody to come get me from my class. The nurse needed to inform me that I was missing my MMR shot, and that I couldn't go back to school until this is done. Coincidentally, I was tired and didn't want to be bothered. She told me that she was worried that I was under the influence of some substance.

BULLSHIT!

Tell me why this broad did the whole blood pressure and what not. She said that she couldn't get my blood pressure because it was too low. No shit, Sherlock, I said that I didn't eat breakfast... And, alcohol raises blood pressure anyways. She made me do the drunk test. I did that before, and was actually under the influence of three beers. I was fine, but I failed the test. Also, I didn't have the registration and insurance card; I failed curfew and the car had a broken taillight. Yeah, it wasn't my car. Long story short, the officer let my friend and I go because she pretended she was sexually assaulted. ANYWHO, when the nurse did her rendition, she made me walk (with my Uggs on) heal-toe, on a straight line, with my eyes closed. WTF?! Evidently, I fell on the second step.

I told her I was fine, and just didn't want to be bothered. I don't understand why they won't leave me the fuck alone. Yeah, so they sent me to the ER for the tests, and all of them shits were NEGATIVE! In your faces. Geez. They need to fuck off.

I had to call out of work for the third time. I got scolded at by my bosses the next day, and my hours were cut in half. Great.

Alice in Wonderland

2010-03-08T02:50:00.003-05:00

MANNNNN, disa-motherfucking-ppointment! I mean, the IMAX 3D was great, but the whole plot of the story was eh. This shit ain't even worth putting up some movie stills. Lol. I don't know what Tim Burton was thinking when he put too much emphasis on Johnny Depp. Well, there's nothing wrong with that because he is my husband, but that ridiculous ending of the Mad Hatter's absurd solo? WTF. I felt embarrassed for him and Alice. I wanted to take my eye balls out of their sockets and throw them at the screen.

I don't really remember the 1950's Alice in Wonderland, but a good movie is a good movie, and a bad movie is a bad movie. And, this one was just horrid.